Kate's Letter to Santa

[Kastlefan301]

Dear Santa,

It's been a couple years since I last wrote you a letter. Back then, I was in a quandry over a certain man and asked for your help. I asked for the courage and strength to tell him how I feel about him. I asked for help in being able to be with him. This year is a bit different I think.

Firstly, I want to thank you for helping me to be with him. You remember the man I told you about back then, Richard Castle, the mystery novelist? Well, Santa we're FINALLY together. This is our first Christmas together and I'm so happy that I could burst. Every time I look at him and think he couldn't be more amazing or more handsome and then he is. You've given me something rich and special with this love and I'm so grateful.

I'm sure you know what happened to me last year. You have that magic crystal snowball and all. I died and was sent back because I have unfinished business to do here and because I couldn't bear to leave the people I love. Rick is one of those people I love.

And now you're saying, why do I detect a "but" in there someplace. You're right there is a "but" and I guess this is where my thank you letter turns into another plea for help.

Rick told me the day I was shot that he loves me and every time I look at him and see the sparkle in his eyes that's only for me, I know he does from the bottom of his heart. But the problem is, I haven't been able to tell it back to him and that bothers me. I love him and should tell him, shout it to the world. I show him all the time how much I love him, but when it comes to saying it, some how the words just don't come out. I guess I'm a bit afraid to tell him, thinking once I do the bubble will burst and some how I'll end up with nothing. Yeah, I know doesn't make sense. He's so important to me and I don't want to mess up this one. I failed so many times with other men and I can't have this one fail. Rick is my life. He's like the beat of my heart and the air I breathe. I have to have him with me or parish. I suppose maybe I'm afraid to say it because I don't want to disappoint him. He's had two failed marriages and I know he wants us to work. He doesn't want to fail either. I'm too important to him.

So I guess what I'm asking for help with this year, Santa, is again the courage to tell him how I feel even though he sees it every day. Please help me to tell Rick I love him. Please help me to make this one work. He's my one and done, Santa. I know he is. Please give me the strength to not be afraid of disappointing him and not doubting anything about our relationship. Please give me an eternity with Rick.

Katie Beckett

[castlelover66]

lovely

[Kastlefan301]

Thanks, CL!

I wrote one a couple years ago, around this time when we were part way through third season and you could tell Kate was still somewhat despondant and confused about what to do about her feelings for Rick. Santa was the person she felt could help and she made an earnest pleading to have Rick. I had her admit to Santa that she loved Rick and needed him.

I'd have gone on the ABC board to find it but I'm pretty sure that a post from two years ago wouldn't be there. Too bad too cause it was good. I think someone who posted on that thread thought it was great and tweeted it to Mr. Marlowe.

[Queen Of The Castle]

This is just beautiful and you captured the very essence of the character in this letter as well.

I loved your take on what's holding her back from saying those three special words to him.

It was wonderful! Thank you!

[Kastlefan301]

Thanks Queen!

I wish I had that first one I wrote darn it. It was kind of wild writing it. I sort of felt like I was channeling Kate or something.

[Queen Of The Castle]

Dec 6, 2012 20:48:26 GMT -5 Kastlefan301 said:

Thanks Queen!

I wish I had that first one I wrote darn it. It was kind of wild writing it. I sort of felt like I was channeling Kate or something.

That's too bad that you don't have a copy of it.

I went through the old archives from last January and December there and I don't see your thread there. Sometimes, after a while, they do delete older threads. I once tried to find one between me and Arky and I went through every page for a span of a specific four months and it wasn't there anywhere. Other threads from that time seemed to be missing as well.

It's too bad, though.

[Kastlefan301]

Dec 6, 2012 21:22:22 GMT -5 Queen Of The Castle said:

Dec 6, 2012 20:48:26 GMT -5 Kastlefan301 said:

Thanks Queen!

I wish I had that first one I wrote darn it. It was kind of wild writing it. I sort of felt like I was channeling Kate or something.

That's too bad that you don't have a copy of it.

I went through the old archives from last January and December there and I don't see your thread there. Sometimes, after a while, they do delete older threads. I once tried to find one between me and Arky and I went through every page for a span of a specific four months and it wasn't there anywhere. Other threads from that time seemed to be missing as well.

It's too bad, though.

Does twitter keep posts for a while? I know it got tweeted to Mr. Marlowe. Could it be on his twitter page perhaps. I don't know a thing about twitter. Do you? Should be from Dec 2010, part way through season 3. Is there a way to look on his page?

[Queen Of The Castle]

Dec 6, 2012 21:36:32 GMT -5 Kastlefan301 said:

Does twitter keep posts for a while? I know it got tweeted to Mr. Marlowe. Could it be on his twitter page perhaps. I don't know a thing about twitter. Do you? Should be from Dec 2010, part way through season 3. Is there a way to look on his page?

I know there is a way, but I think you have to search by a specific date. There was something about that posted here a while ago, I think.

I'll try to find it when I get home later tonight. Oh, and I was looking through the archives for December 2011, so I'll go back and see if I can find your letter in December 2010 instead. I just assumed it was last year, which would be why I didn't find it. Lol.

I'll check it out for you and post it here if I can find it!!

[Kastlefan301]

Found the original!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You can stop looking Queen and thanks for trying, my friend.

[Kastlefan301]

Here's the original one from December 2, 2010, with a few modifications to reflect what we didn't know about a certain doctor at the time, but Kate would know:

Dear Santa,

It's been a really long time since I wrote you a letter. In fact, until recently I had given up on magic, wonder, hope, and the possibility of finding love. I know you can see me with your magic crystal snowball and see what I've been doing over the years, but I really have this big request this year and hope you'll listen. I also know I broke the rules back when I was younger and I really deserve coal, but please, I've grown up. Please cut me some slack.

I'm a homicide detective now in New York City. I have this mystery novelist named Rick Castle following me around and he helps me solve murders. In our first case, the victims were killed in a similar fashion to victims in his stories so I had to go to him for help. The mayor, who Rick is friends with, insisted to the Captain that I had to let him shadow me. I had no choice but to do what the Captain said. At first I found Rick completely annoying, irritating, and a pest, but now......now I don't think I could go through a day without him. See, Santa, I love him. But the problem is I'm not completely sure he feels the same way. I think he does, but before I put my heart out there I want to know. I don't want to get hurt.

I've tried wearing prettier, more flattering clothes, wearing my hair a bit different, flirting. I say flirty things to him and hold his gaze hoping he'll get the idea I'm interested, but sometimes I wonder if he's paying attention. I smile more at him than I used to. I'm trying to be more open about myself and my past in the hope that he'll do the same. I'm trying hard to show him that I care so very much about him. I know I messed up going out with Tom. That was a bad mistake. Rick probably thought I wasn't interested. And now, it looks like Gina, his second ex-wife, has his attention. I hope they aren't back together. I don't think I could handle that. Makes me jealous just thinking about it.

Please Santa, all I want is to find a man who truly loves me with all his heart, mind, and soul. I know Rick is that man deep in my heart even though I'm still getting to know him. So this Christmas, Santa, that's what I'm asking for. I'd like my present to be Rick Castle...all of him, entirely in every way. He's helped me rediscover the person I was before Mom was killed and for that I can't thank him enough. He's helped me re-find the magic, wonder, and hope that I used to have. Now all I need is his complete, unconditional, true love. Please, Santa. Please come through this year cause I don't know what I'd do if I didn't have Rick.

Thanks for reading my letter.

Katie Beckett

P.S. Santa
This is Katie Beckett again. I forgot one thing. You know that guy Josh? That heart surgeon that I know? Well, he's not as important to me as people think. He sort of messed things up a bit showing up at the precinct the other day. Now, all the guys I work with, including Rick, think I'm dating him. But, just to let you know, I'm not. Not really. The guy is out of town seemingly all the time saving the world and not me. What kind of dating is that when he's hardly around? But then again, with your magic crystal snowball....you know that. Please don't hold that against me. I wouldn't date someone else and then ask you to give me the love of my life. Rick is the only man I want, plain and simple, period. Oh, I love Rick so much and I want him to know that.

[CastleFanGran]

Kastlefan301, I'm so glad that you shared Kate's Letters to Santa--including your original--very creative--and"right on," too!!!

[Queen Of The Castle]

Dec 6, 2012 23:25:01 GMT -5 Kastlefan301 said:

Found the original!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You can stop looking Queen and thanks for trying, my friend.

That's awesome!! And I really enjoyed the original as well. It does sound familiar, so I do think I read it back in the day, but it was just wonderful.

I'm glad you were able to find it and I hope you've saved a copy to your computer as well! Lol.

[castlekat]

OMG, Kf301!! Those are DARLING!

Thank you for sharing them!

[csttraveler018]

KF: I love both letters so Santa, if you are listening, I would love to see happen what Kate wrote in the second letter.

[Arky]

Dear Katie,

I believe that Rick loves you unconditionally. I also believe that you love him and he is indeed your one and done.
Try to remember what he told you a while back. You and he were discussing fate,Santa,magic and you were having a hard time believing what he was telling you.
Rick said, "If you don't believe in even the possibility of magic,you will never find it."

Katie, love is magic. All you have to do is believe.When you believe,your heart will open and all the love you have for him will come flowing out. He will be swamped in it. Totally immersed in your love. You will have no problem telling him you love him.

Believe Katie Lou and the magic will be yours.

Always,
Santa

;D